week 15 road to WBFF bikini show for this 46 year old woman with an ostomy

Week 15 has come and gone. What can I say? The last 2 weeks have been rough.

Zero energy
Scale ⬆️ & ⬇️
Uncontrollable hunger
Massive cravings

I got a deload week and different macros with a more carbs & less fat.

During this time, I’ve been analyzing everything I’ve been doing. And it’s frustrating to be doing everything you are supposed to while your body will ultimately decide what’s gonna happen. This is the EXACT scenario you navigate with an autoimmune issue. You have minimal control over what is going on inside of you if you allow stress to run the show.

A lot of my upper limits have reappeared. And I’ve made a lot of self-sabotaging decisions:

  1. I stopped taking my balance oil because it has 10 grams of fat per serving. Even tho’ my coach said supplements were freebies, I took it upon myself to stop it because the scale stalled.

I take balance oil to mitigate inflammation. I didn’t think my body needed it, but after stopping it and feeling the way I did, I know now that managing my inflammation and stress is my PRIORITY #1. A few days after restarting my oil supp and I feel 100x better! Won’t make that mistake again!

  1. Despite my body’s cues, I forced myself to hit high RPEs on my lifts because my ego took over. #nopainnogain
  2. I did not talk to my Coach about it until it was impossible for me to keep pushing through. I told myself this is how prep is; don’t bug her with my trivial emotional issues. I did what I USED to do which is to set aside my feelings and symptoms because there’s a bigger goal at play here, no matter the cost. #gohardorgohome

Old habits die hard. 🤦🏽‍♀️

People on here will post all this stuff about “if you just commit and push your excuses aside… if you make up your mind…. If you are sick and tired of being sick and tired…

But I’m here to remind you that you could be doing all the things & still, your body will always show you whose boss and remind you whose in control.

My Coach @janellefitmarks said I should switch to the Aug Vegas show to give me more time. I hope @808lekeli is excited to get an extra week in #sincity

Who wants to go to Vegas 🎰🎲💃🏽with us?!

Weight: 142.2lb
Waist 25”
Hips 36”
Thigh 19”

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