At the height of my orthorexia and exercise bulimia, I was 125 pounds.
I was not doing any weight lifting for fear of the scale going up. I lived on water, minimal food and fat burners and I was eating less than the 1,000 calories Jenny Craig put me on because I just couldn’t get the scale to hit 125 pounds.
In the 7 months I joined Jenny Craig, I lost 45 pounds, but it took the last 3 of those 7 months to lose the last 5 pounds to hit my 125 pound goal. My body was screaming at me to STOP! But I didn’t listen.
In the photo on the left I am smiling, but inside I am sad, starving and worried about how I will keep up my rigid food and exercise regimen.
Fast forward to TODAY and I am currently 147 pounds with a moderate exercise schedule. I eat 2,000 calories with a macro-balanced protein, carb and fat ratio.
This is the healthiest (mentally and physically) I have ever been. And it took a lot of hard work to arrive here (more mental work than anything else).
From 2018-2020, I started to eat whatever the F I wanted because I was trying at the age of 44 to have a baby. My dream of having a baby outweighed my desire for a dream body.
But after (5) failed IUIs and (1) failed IVF, I found myself at my heaviest weight of 178 pounds in March 2020.
So, I reached out for support. I was lucky to be matched with a Coach who specializes in ED (eating disorders) with my ultimate goal to heal my food and fitness relationship.
I was done with the extremes. I was fed up with the diets. I knew how to lose weight the wrong way; but I didn’t know how to lose or maintain a healthy weight the balanced way.
The photo on the right is what balance for me looks like now.
I am well aware that my current body shape now fitted with a permanent ostomy isn’t ideal for most; but you know what it is – being comfortable in your own skin and loving your body through it all (ostomy or not).
And that is my message to you! STRIVE TO BE THE BEST VERSION OF YOURSELF THAT YOU CAN BE!
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